I dunno if you've ever heard about death coming in odd numbers, one Uncle died before my grandmother like 3 weeks ago (hes not related)... thats two deaths...then yesterday...I got a call in the morning as I was getting ready for work...an Uncle of mine passed away - He was mentally challenged (He's my Grandmother's nephew), his mum spent her whole life taking care of him (I watched her cry the whole day yesterday)...man its been a hectic month...and then later at around 3 my best friend's grandmother passed away...and then I thought...1 more...or 3...

sigh...I feel worse than before...and I would stress again...embrace EVERY OPPORTUNITY that you have, cus we aren't promised a tomorrow...we think we're INVINCIBLE and we're NOT...one day you're here and you're gone the next...

I'm so content that you guys wouldn't know how much I am...I am soo very greatful for all that I have, and for the support that you guys have given me...theres so much more people out there who doesn't have what I have or what you have...you get to read this...they've never seen a computer before, they've never had the opportunity to take a photo, ride a bike...be with their family...see, hear, talk or even walk...I've always loved helping people, and I still do even when they don't ask, I go out of my way to make someone happy or feel better, and I never expect anything in return, thats how I am, and maybe thats why I feel so bad, cus I always want people to feel better...

I wanted to feature the pageview winner...but I'm not up for that now...so sorry my dear...but I appreciate you catching it...and I appreciate all of you not up for replying either...just wanted to say these things...needed to get it out

...my journey here has been an unbelievable one...a huge adventurous discovery for me...I have met some of the most beautiful people here, and to name you all would take me a while You guys have become some great friends, and have stood by and supported me, I've watched myself grow...and thank you =burningbush for introducing me to this site , I have grown alot since you introduced me to this life, my work wasn't that great, I was learning and I was blown away by the talent here...I was so inspired to try to make my work be just as beautiful as what I saw, I pushed myself... I fell in love and became obsessed with photography, creating feelings, coming up with concepts...and without DA I wouldn't have gotten to the point I'm at today, I'm pleased and proud of myself (forgive me if I sound like I'm boasting) but when you never thought you were capable of doing something and you get it done - or you somewhat get it done lol...it makes you proud of your accomplishments, and because of DA, and the community, I've grown, I've learnt, I've appreciated, and I've fallen in love with all of you, with the art, with everything here...lol if people weren't around I'd probably cry lol


every little things means alot to me, thank you so much for reading if you got this far...I've written quite alot




and again I say this...

ALWAYS cherish what you have and live every moment like its your last. Make the BEST out of everything, and always tell people how you FEEL, if you LOVE someone let them know, be there for them. Don't live life in hatred,nor hold on to what cannot be fixed FORGIVE others... don't try changing people to suit yourself, change yourself so you can be BETTER. Look for the GOOD in everything, be THANKFUL, be GREATFUL...

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Are your polls showing up in your message center? I made a poll [link] (and I'd really like feedback on it cus I'd love to try some HDR), got no response, then I realised no polls are showing up

caught my 20k... 20k!! me?! think its 'bout time I wrote a big thank you, and about my journey here on DA (its been a very adventurous and amazingg one...and thats an understatement)if you don't wanna read it...fine...(lol just kidding)...will do that in my next journal update...I'm gunna do some features and such...

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Been doing more writing than featuring...I think I've just lost the joy in doing stuff lately...was going on a little trip with a friend of mine...was ready, prepared lunch and stuff...didn't happen but I did go to the beach...well more like beaches...cus my family and I drove around so much trying to avoid mobs of people (it was Wet Fete yesterday...if you even know what that is) and it was ok...instead of bathing when I got there I was more interested in looking through the viewfinder and taking photos...why can't I ever NOT take a photo...and I dislike almost all of the photos I took...and its so weird...lately...I don't think my work looks ok to put up...or to even be considered good...its like I expect them to be a specific standard and I don't even know what that is (I'm not looking for attention but thats how I really feel, honestly)...are you even reading my rambling...I hope to feature some work soon though... sigh*

and I'm so sorry if I haven't thanked you guys for faving my pieces...I just don't feel upto it...but I really really appreciate all your support and I'd like to thank all of you who stopped by and gave me your support with my last update, it meant alot to me

LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS

just realised I'm almost reaching 20K...

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so...ALWAYS cherish what you have and live every moment like its your last. Make the BEST out of everything, and always tell people how you FEEL, if you LOVE someone let them know, be there for them. Don't live life in hatred, nor hold on to what cannot be fixed, don't try changing people to suit yourself, change yourself so you can be BETTER. Look for the GOOD in everything, be THANKFUL, be GREATFUL...

My Grandmother passed away yesterday...wish I could spend more time with her, wish I could ease her pain from the 10 years that she suffered...wish I could do lots of things...

sorry if I'm inactive, don't feel like doing anything now...wanted to share that with you guys, I've always shared with you when I'm feeling happy, never when I'm down...



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My messages are going berserk...I'm seeing msgs I've never written before, them being replaced with ones that I said in replies...look on my profile page you'll see hahaha (and its happening with some other ppl's messages)...I know its the migration thing....but just incase you get some wack msg me from me, don't think I'm loosing my mind (that hasn't happen just yet incase you're thinking!)

and uh is my journal still tiling? cus the monitor that I'm looking at...is repeating the white from the background...dunno

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-so I finally...sort-of-ish got my css and design working! and that was seriously annoying me, if you read and saw the amount of edits I made to the journal over the past days...it was like a trillion - not really, but it felt that way! still why on earth is my footer disappearing on the actual journal page? its fine on the profile page... Hover over the links its addictive...or maybe I'm just a dork and I only think that

Anyways...here you have the contest winners for =NaturPics-club I'll be featuring these winners for a while and then I will be moving them to my shoutboard as I have to make room for more contest winners in the month, such as *The-Heart 's contest, =orangetopatos 's contest, her news article ( [link] ) and maybe another contest

I was hoping to do some weekly features, may get around to that tomorrow! wanna give the winners the spotlight!

I'm very I won a contest for the first time in my life! with my entry "The Touch" for ^KevLewis GPGA contest [link] , I placed third in the previous GPGA contest, I so wasn't expecting to place in this one and I'm so greatful, the shot was one of those lucky shots



Do you guys even read what I write, just to see if you do, reply with XD at the top of your comment lol






by the =NaturPics-club





by ~Yinxy
_{(134 points)}





by *SchwarzWieEbenholZ
_{(131 points)}





by =BlackPa
_{(115 points)}



~FarukTaskini _{(114 points)}
*Viand _{(110 points)}
=ericthom57 _{(103 points)}
*malaskor _{(92 points)}
=TerrorCookie _{(92 points)}
*feline643 _{(86 points)}
=BlackSatechi _{(70 points)}

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I have had great pleasure and difficulty judging this contest with the three wonderful artists because of all the beautiful entries, the contest holder =dandelgrosso has really done a great job holding the contest, so I'd like to thank him for the wonderful job, without further ado...the contest winners!